Crash-out?

Honestly, this week and even part of last week I've been slowly having a bit of a crash. I've sort of been noticing it in the back of my mind but recently people around me have been noticing it as well. Apparently I'm pretty consistent when it comes to my crash-outs, and apparently this one is delayed, but still technically on schedule lol. Saying "Crash Out" makes it seem like it's destructive and terrible and "Oh no!!!" but I really don't know another way to describe it - maybe a depressive slump? That's too sad lol.

Whenever this happens I do try to be positive though, reflect on what I've been up to, and things I've done. It really helps when my partner has a really good memory¹, since she can always remind me of what we've been up to - & I'm really appreciative of it. Last weekend was a bit slow, one of those "chill & quiet" weekends - so it feels like you did nothing and wasted time, but we did actually go out and have a nice lunch and get a run in. It's small things that I want to try to focus on more.

Another thing I find that helps me remember things is taking more photos! It's soooo good to look back in my camera roll and see pictures from the past week to help me reflect on what I've been up to. We actually started last week with a quick IKEA run - IKEA is actually super chill if you go at 6pm on a Monday vs the weekend lol. We grabbed a mirror (for selfies), some fake plants and a new desk for the study. The fake plants are mostly for hard to reach background greenery, things that u don't rlly pay much attention to. We prefer real plants where we can but some spots, like on top of bookshelves, aren't really realistic to easily water, and they're back there enough that when combo'd with real plants it'll look nicer. We also grabbed a desk for our study, which until now was a glorified storage room, but we've cleaned it out and have moved the 3D printers in there for now. Excited to use the space a bit more in the future!

On Tuesday we went over to a friend's place for dinner, as well as to pick up my new Macbook Air. We just chilled out and played with their cats & they got me some gifts for my birthday too which was really nice. One friend got me the book "Strange Houses" which I was saying I really wanted to read, so I'm keen to start reading it soon!

The rest of the week was quite slow and average - nothing too cool to focus on. I think that's why over the weekend I was kind of crashing, feeling like I did nothing, when really I did do shit - it was just at the start of the week. Maybe I need to do these reflective posts more often.